Monday, June 18, 2012

My Turn



It's my turn to deal with cancer. Breast cancer to be exact. I had started another blog to deal with the implications of it. I ended up having to delete it. There was a major break in communication with my family who were here over the past weekend.

I'm not going to go into details, but right now I don't have the energy to deal with ongoing negativity. All of my energy has to go into figuring out how to survive and there are people here who will work with me. It ripped me apart and still rips me apart to keep them out of my life, but for the moment I will do it.

I went today to meet with the radiation oncologist. Depending on the return of my tests I will either do brachytherapy or the more traditional 6 week radiation. There could be chemotherapy if the 2 biopsied lymph nodes come back with intermediate or high risk results. The time frame for knowing may be as soon as Wednesday or Thursday.

If I met the requirements, I plan to do brachytherapy. Emotionally I am drained today, I feel like I lost alot of ground, I'm trying to regain it. Several of my female friends surrounded me with support and reasurrance today and will be helping to step up to the plate as I figure out how to reconfigure my life. They receive my gratitude today.


Whitney Houston, "I'm Every Woman":


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